Time keeps ticking away, tick tick ticking away..

I am reminded of an old song that I first heard done by DC Talk when i was a kid (most likely a redone song) with the lyrics "Time keeps ticking away, tick tick ticking away"... Very catchy tune that meant nothing to me as a child more than rhythmic lyrics sung in a melodic fashion. Now, these words sing powerful truth and also yield a sense of mystery. I still can't understand how quickly time goes by yet how far off things seem. For instance, I graduated college 6 months ago! I can't believe that. Yet there is this balance of college being so close yet so far off. I think a lot of this has to do with maturity as well and understanding what new phases of life we are entering into. But i look back at even recent event and realize how quickly things are happening. I remember just the other day preparing for my move to Portland to help start Colossae Church and it has already be 9 weeks since I moved up here now. When will time yield consistency?

One of the funny things about my gradual process of accepting this concept of time was getting over my youthful tendency of always looking to tomorrow. I don't know if this is more of a character trait which resides in young boys, but I can remember after every birthday I would be counting down the days until my next birthday. When asked how old I was, lets say I turned 12... i could be simply a month after my birthday and I would say "Oh, i'll be 13 in 11 months" Something silly like that. This general dissatisfaction with my current state of being, and though this definitely changes as you grow older, especially after your reach that God Forsaken hill that all those 39 year olds talk about, i think that nature reflects our human desire to have more, and often times our dissatisfaction.

These are just some thoughts that have been bouncing in my head (silly phrase really) but the truth is that I am trying to learn to live in the now and not just waiting for the next great thing that is coming up. God has been teaching me a lot since I moved to Portland and it is just crazy to see how things change so fast. God is definitely proving faithful.

I must say though, i do miss family and friends! Look forward to seeing everyone again!