Sunset

From The Eyes Of A Child

Yesterday after finishing my softball game, I drove home to my apartment in Beaverton. I was alone since Kristen had to work until 9 that evening. As I walked the 150 yards from my conveniently placed garage to the front door of our apartment, i slowly gazed up into cloud ridden sky and noticed through the vast array a seemingly small airplane cruising the evening sky. All of the sudden I was overwhelmed with a sense of nostalgia and the essence of youthful emotion came over me. I remembered for a moment what the bewilderment of a child was like. I remember looking up into the sky as a child and be completely amazed by such a flying vessel and how it fearlessly commanded the vast blue sky. Then I remembered the first time that I was able to fly in an airplane, sitting by the window, eyes glued on the ever changing terrain. The clouds looked like a winter wonderland and the earth looked so small.

As I was bombarded with these nostalgic thoughts I was saddened by the realization of how little I stand in awe of my surroundings. Why do we let ourselves be completely caught up in the everyday commonalities and lose the joy and love of the amazing beauty around us? How do we learn in such a progressive society to not speed up but slow down for a moment and take a look at all that God has created? How do we pursue the majestic and not the mundane? I am convicted and am wondering how I can make myself once again realize the perfection in creation and the beauty in everyday life.


I know this is the first blog post I have done outside of my photography blog in over a year, but I just felt compelled to write this.

2 Years In Portland, 2 Weeks Until Marriage!

Ok, so as is common for me, i haven't updated my blog in forever, this time was about 3 months! All i can say is that a ridiculous amount has happened in the past 3 months. Shoot, my entire engagement process is just over 4 months so I have barely even posted anything about it. You know the story, how we met, how we got engaged, etc. But now we are almost a married couple! Before we go further into that, lets start with the 2 year mark in Portland.

So I believe it was april 1oth, 2008 that I officially made it up to Tigard, Oregon... my new home. I got up here with no idea of what life would be like, what the church would look like and how I would acclimate to the north west. Well now I am 2 years in, have seen 2 full changes of the seasons and am really getting an understanding of Portland. I have to say, I still love it up here! It honestly doesn't matter what the weather brings, there is a new outlook and a breath of fresh air every day. Today for instance was a gorgeous spring day, flowers blooming, 70 degrees out, sun shinning, enjoying wonderful friendships. I am so blessed with what the Lord has provided for me up here and can't believe all the dramatic change that has happened. I came up here and for the first year, struggled with some loneliness and just the desire to find my wife, which by moving up here was one of my ways of giving that desire up to the Lord and trusting in His provision and plan. For the first 3/4 part of the first year, I didn't even see relationship potential and just figured that marriage wasn't going to be something in my near future, but other things were in store. So we get to the beginning of the 3rd week of April last year and Kristen (my now fiance and very soon to be wife) moved up here to join my church body. By may 28th, 2009 we were officially dating. 7 months in, I proposed to here (which, i must admit felt crazy to me. I NEVER thought that I would get engaged so soon or be ready to get married like that. But seeing how she pursues the Lord and how we are going to be able to serve well together here in Oregon and/or wherever the Lord takes us, I knew it was the right decision.

Well there is probably so much i could tell you about the last few months. Spending many days wedding planning, on the phone most days with both of our mothers, or "wedding leazons" if you prefer such a title. There have been up times, there have been down times, stressful times. And as I sit here now, in "my" bedroom, which in 2 weeks will be Our bedroom, i begin to realize the weight and reality of where we are. I'm a few months away from 26 years old, about to be a married man and changing my life in so many ways. It is exciting and scary at the same time. To not only be unified with someone for life, but to give your heart completly, knowing that it will be hurt from time to time but trusting in restoration and our ability to persevere. I find myself trying to balance the load of realizing how HEAVY the actuality of marriage is but also just going into it not being worrisome but realizing the beauty in God's design of marriage. I wish I could say that I have everything figured out and that I know our marriage will be easy and always fun, but I feel I am preparing myself to serve and build up my wife even when things get rough. Engagement can show glimpses of our selfishness, but I think I need to prepare myself to see how selfish I really am and how I am going to daily need to humble myself before the Lord and my wife. I'm excited and i think the thing that scares me the most is the fact that everything is so surreal right now and the fact that I am going to be married in less than 2 weeks really hasn't set in. My buddy eric told me about this book he was reading a while back; i forget the title, but the gist of it was something like "What if marriage wasn't designed for happiness but for holiness". Taking a look at the idea that through marriage, we are able to see our failures so much more and are able to if pursuing the Lord and trying, draw nearer to Him through marriage. This, though not easy and potentially painful at times, will allow us to pursue God better and to commit ourselves more. 2 weeks away: I've still got lots to learn, I don't think I will ever be fully prepared but I am excited to see what God does in our commitment.

I hear the wedding bells ringing

So, I know it has been a while, AS ALWAYS, since i have updated my blog but as would be expected, I have been quite busy planning my wedding. Kristen and I are getting married in 93 days, so things are just flying by and planning takes quite a bit of work. Here is a list of just a few things we have planned/done for the wedding over the last month:

1. Bought a wedding dress
2. Decided on the wedding bands
3. Planned a honeymoon
4. Found the bridesmaids dresses
5. Bought suits for the groomsmen
6. Booked a location
7. Took our own engagement photos
8. Made and sent out save the dates

And there is probably a lot more, but we have kept quite busy with all that and still have much more to go. Here are a few of the engagement photos, hopefully you enjoy.

Life can be quite busy when you have all of this stuff, but it is good. I am very excited for the big day and just honored to be able to marry such a great woman.

Kristen And I Are Engaged!?!?! (This Post Is worth the 2 and a half month wait)

So this is quite surreal for me to be actually making a post about this, and I am actually the one getting engaged. For a while I thought that a movie was going to be made about me called 27 Tuxes for how much weddings I have been in. I constantly joke around about how many people post that they are engaged on facebook; literally sometimes it is daily! For a long time I kind of wondered "when will this be me?" Well I'm glad that I have been patient over the years because I have found an amazing woman, Kristen!

Where to really start in this story.... I feel like I have had so much going through my head over the last month or so, so I guess I will go back to about a month ago. Well, I had known for quite a while, even in college that Kristen was an amazing woman, but over the past several months I have really seen it in how she lives out her life. As we have been living life in community together and been dating, I have just seen how she is such a perfect fit for me and how well we work together. I had been thinking through many things throughout the relationship and just really trying to understand what it looks like to have a truly God revering relationship and when to know that I am ready to get married. After spending more time together and getting to know each others families, I just realized that this is a woman that I would love to marry, so then planning had to begin.

So there I was, finally I had decided that I was going for it... I was going to propose! I had always known that whenever i did propose, it was very important to me to make it a complete surprise and something special. So I had to do a lot of planning and precautions. First thing was first... I needed to find a ring. I knew that Kristen wanted me to pick out a ring without her knowing so I just had to go off of what I knew of her. So I went online and looked through many rings of different styles and narrowed it down to 2 rings. The first was a large center diamond with 2 pear shaped diamonds on the side in a very elegant white gold ring. The second, which is the one I chose had a center raised diamond with channel set alternating diamonds and sapphires in a white gold setting. I ended up deciding that because it was very clean and classic looking but also original that it was the perfect ring for Kristen. So then I needed to know the ring size. Kristen went to work one night, I snuck into her room, grabbed a ring that i was pretty sure fit and took it to a jeweler to get measured. I then placed it back and gave the info to my guy in California, Archie Henderson.

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So, the next part was asking Kristen's Father for her hand in marriage. Being 1000 miles apart, I knew the only way i could ask was over the phone for me to be able to do it without Kristen knowing. So I stealthily stole kristen's phone and got her parents phone numbers out of the phone. I called David (or mr. giesenschlag if you prefer) and asked him in a somewhat awkward but great conversation. I was so blessed to have them give me the go ahead and tell me they are excited about it.

I guess that is enough background: Here is the engagement story. I wanted to make a very special christmasy evening that seemed like a normal date night. So we went to Pick-up Stix for dinner down in san diego (we don't have that in portland, so we missed it). Then I took her to Garrison street in point loma, where the street is DECKED out for christmas, so i wanted her to see the splendor. Next, off to The Hotel Del Coronado. This was her first time down there, and christmas time is the perfect time to check it out. We walked through and saw all the beautiful decorations and then watched people falling on the outdoor ice skating rink. We left there to go to the final spot. As we were driving to the last spot we had the "Remember the Titans" Cd playing in the background and I think that it was the perfect pump up music for me. There is a little park on the edge of coronado overlooking the San Diego bay and with a beautiful view of the San Diego Skyline. We walked over to a bench where I handed Kristen a somewhat large wrapped box, which I told her was an early Christmas present. When she opened it up, she realized it was a Photo book that I had made for her that had "A Book Of Memories" written on the front with a picture of us together. The book has a bunch of photos of us and adventures we have gone on throughout the relationship, for the most part in cronological order. As she turns through it I await somewhat nervously, for I know what the last page had in store. As she turns to the last page, there was a picture of me down on one knee with ring box in hand in front of a christmas tree with the caption "The Memories have only just begun". As she turned to this page, i got down on one knee and proposed. She said yes and with a big smile on her face, gave me a huge hug. It was truly a special moment!

One last surprise was in store for Kristen. After we started driving home, we continued to talk about the night and my sneakiness, and when we arrived at my parents house, waiting there was my parents, my grandma, my sister, brother in law and nephew, my bud dustin and his wife courtney, Kristens parents, her sister and niece, and her friend amanda and husband aaron. We had a great little celebration and was truly the perfect end to an amazing night. I have been truly blessed to be dating Kristen and now I am lucky to be able to say she is my future wife! Below are some pictures from the day including the last picture of Kristen as a pre-engaged woman. Unfortunately, we have no pictures of the proposal itself, but we will remember it forever!

2 Months, A New Record!!!!

Ok, if it wasn't official before, it is definitely official now that I am not a blessed blogger... Or at least I am just not a motivated blogger. Man, it seems like every time that I want to be more eager about keeping up with the blog, i just fall away from it again and again. Oh well. Let me try to give you a two month synopsis! Lets see what events have occurred since the last time I've blogged.

1. Josh Dean Married Sarah Shryock (Dean). This was a great wedding down in Silverado, CA (which is basically just in the hills of orange county). That wedding was a ton of fun! Kristen and I got to go down and hang out with SD for a week with our families and then got to enjoy an amazing time with a lot of college friends that we hadn't seen in a while. I was a groomsman in the wedding and got the chance to sing the song "True Love" by Phil Wickham during communion. It was a truly beautiful event and I was stoked to be able to go! Oh ya, and I also caught the Garter.... don't read into anything =)
2. Jacob Stoesz and Katey Schroeder (Stoesz) Wedding! Two weeks later, I was a groomsman in my old college roommates wedding, Mr. Jacob Stoesz! This one was in Pismo Beach, just 15 minutes away from good old San Luis Obispo. This wedding and the events surrounding it was quite nostalgic as I hadn't been to slo in almost a couple years. Pretty weird feeling but it was great seeing a bunch of my old roommates and friends! This wedding was less formal, and was a ton of fun! I got to hang out with a lot of people but the trip was like 3 days (because I had already spent so much money and time for the other wedding).
3. I Saved A Bunch Of Money On My Car Insurance By Switching To 25 Years Of Age! On september 26th, I offically became an old man... I can no longer claim to be in my "early" 20's anymore... I am officially in my mid twenties and goodness gracious, i can already see 30 pearing around the corner so mischieviously. My birthday was pretty awesome. Kristen planned a whole day out up in seattle. She picked me up in the morning, we went to these Locks in seattle (where they raise and lower boats by making a water blockade) it was a really cool sight and we had a picnic at a park there. Then we went to the Experience Music Project museum, FOR FREE, because it was Museum day randomly. Finally we spent some time down at Pike Market and got dinner at the waterfront. Overall it was a great day!
4. Designed And Built A Soundbooth! I had been planning on putting a soundbooth in the church to better contain all of the sound equipment and computer stuff, especially since we are allowing a bunch of other groups to use our church building. So i spent some time, got out my engineering drafting tools, and drafted up a design for a soundbooth, got out a bunch of tools including some new powertools my parents got me for my birthday, and put about 20 something hours into building this booth, and I must say, i'm quite proud of it! It came out pretty good!
5. A Pursuit Of The Photographic Nature. I have decided that I am going to start trying to do photography on more of a semi-professional level. I have been adding equipment to my arsenal and am really hoping to be able to start doing more portrait photography, maybe even doing some wedding photography. I don't know If I really want to make this my career but I just enjoy doing photography so I am working with it right now.

So there is probably much more that has been going on within the last couple months but I feel like that gives you a good idea of what has been going on in my life. God is good and I am stoked on where things are headed. There have definitely been challenges, including a 5 month struggle of understanding my housing situation, figuring out whether I need to move, trying to find a roommate, having to move, then just figuring all these things out but God continues to be faithful. There is no end to this story yet, but there should be within 3 weeks. I hope all is well, God Bless!

Who Am I Trying To Kid

So, I feel like I continually lie to you all and I apologize... I have realized that blogging is probably the first and easiest thing to neglect once life gets busy. For about a month my schedule has been as follows:

Monday: work from 11:30 til 3ish, then play a softball game for the mens league i joined at night
Tuesday: The beginning of my weekend, the one day I have completely open
Wednesday: I am off of work this day as well which i usually get some stuff done then have community group at night
Thursday: I work at 4pm until about 10pm
Friday: I work from about 3pm until 11pm ish
Saturday: Work from 5pm until 12am
Sunday: Get up at 7am, get to church at 8am, at church until noon, get lunch and hang out until about 2, work from 3pm until 9pm, relax a little bit then sleep to start the next week

I think what makes things so difficult about this schedule is that I only have one night a week open to plan stuff which usually gets filled up pretty quick, either meeting up with friends or having a date night with Kristen. Those afternoons before work seem to fill up so quickly as well. But i am enjoying life! I just wish i didn't have a lack of evenings, which is when most people are actually able to hang out.

So lets see, what has been going on in life... I've got a couple weddings coming up at the end of this month and beginning of september so i have been looking forward to those! Both are in california, so it is going to be an expensive time, but very enjoyable! Kristen and I will be spending a week in SD area to see family and go to one of the weddings, so that will be a blast.

Here are some pictures from the last month or soSome of the Colossae girls having fun with sparklers on the 4th of July

Yay for the 4th of July
This is in July when my parents came up to portland to visit. We went to the Japanese gardens
Here they are at the rose gardens!
We went to the aquarium down in newport oregon, on the coast. Crazy Jellyfish!
Kristen enjoying being under thousands of gallons of water and crazy sharks!
Kristen and I went on a dress up date downtown portland, and went to a great sushi restaurant!
Finally this is just one picture i took from community group of my crazy little friend Charlie (He loves his food that is for sure)